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Oct. 21st, 2017 11:59 am
turps: (Governess Mikey ( turlough))
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Happy birthday [livejournal.com profile] solariana I hope you have a great day with lots of rest!

We had a lovely time at the awards do last night. Sadly James' group didn't win, but even so, it was a good time. A nice meal, good company and dancing until after midnight. I got up to dance, too. I don't know myself any more!

So many awards to amazing people were given out. My favourite being to a man who'd been a paramedic for 50 years, that's just, wow. It looked like he's more on patient transport side now instead of being out in the thick of things, but even so, he's still out there working.

We had two paramedics on our table, a fabulous lady who was in the nominated group with James, and another man who I thought was also in that group. But turned out to be the head of cardiology for the whole of NE England.

The hotel itself was lovely and set in gorgeous grounds, we would have explored a bit more this morning but James had came off a night shift, had been given the night off for the awards, but then needs to do two more night shifts tonight and tomorrow. So he's crashed out on the couch getting some sleep now.

So, photos. I said I'd post some, then that'll be that. No more pictures of my face *g*

In here )

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Oct. 17th, 2017 06:46 pm
turps: (unicorn)
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Thank you to everyone who commented and reached out after my last post. You're all very kind, and it was lovely to see some names I haven't seen post for a very long time. Seeing all the comments meant a lot and helped in what was a horrible day. And thank you to [personal profile] madam_beetroot for your card and lovely message that arrived this morning. I don't mind lurkers at all, but know I'm always here to talk to if you feel the need.

I've been to nanna's today to start help clear her house. I got to take a variety of things that meant a lot to me, nothing expensive or even useful in cases, but things that hold deep memories and I'll always treasure. I'm not going to lie, it was hard being there without her, but it has to be done. It's the first time I've helped break down a house, when dad died Pauline was obviously left behind, so it didn't have to be done. And 97 years of life leads to a lot of things to sort through.

Tomorrow it's my one year post op hospital appointment. So expect one final naval gazing post when I'm home from that.

Finally, [community profile] mini_wrimo is taking sign ups atm on both DW and LJ. I love that challenge a lot and I'll be signing up soon. It's very low key and you can set your daily word target as low or high as you like. As I have very little brain right now, I'm setting my bar low and going for 100 words a day. Who knows, I may even get a ficlet out of it somehow.

Holly Poly

Oct. 16th, 2017 10:14 pm
settiai: (Numinous World -- settiai)
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Whoever nominated all of the Numinous World relationships for Holly Poly, I love you. ♥

(If it's not someone reading this, I'm going to be very surprised. Impressed, but surprised.)
turlough: teenaged Frank Iero ((mcr) keep your soul like a secret)
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"Wait, if you're here, where's our Frank?" Gerard interrupts.

"Isn't it like, a rule that you aren't supposed to go back in time and meet yourself?" Ray says. "Or forward, I guess."

They're both glaring at him suspiciously, like he somehow killed his future self. He can't do that, right? Unless he like, canceled his future self out by suddenly existing or something. He didn't see any other Frank around, unless he was like, hiding under the bed or something.

"He was only in there for a second!" Mikey says. "So how is he even here in the first place?"

"Yeah," Frank says wildly. "But you remember me coming back, and I'm still around, I mean, I was till now, so that means I'll go back soon and everything will be normal again. Right?"


- [archiveofourown.org profile] auctorial's Too bad I don't remember a thing

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Oct. 15th, 2017 09:06 am
turps: (unicorn)
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Nanna isn't doing well at the moment.

cut for talk of imminent death )

ETA: I got a call and she's gone.

Nanna Rosie, I love you so so much.

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Virtual Garage Sale

Oct. 14th, 2017 02:24 pm
settiai: (Garrus -- bleeding_muse)
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I know that most of you are probably getting sick of seeing me mention it, but I promise that this will be the last time that I post a link to my virtual garage sale post. That said, if any of you know someone who might potentially be interested in anything listed there, please feel free to pass along the link. I'd really appreciate it.

Also, if anyone knows someone who might be interested in a Roomba (which is listed on that post), please let me know. I'm very much willing to haggle on the price since it's used, but selling it would help me immensely since it's basically the only "big ticket" (so to speak) item that I have left to try selling.

I'm less than $200 away from having enough to cover all of the various bills that will come out of my checking account on November 1st, and from that point forward my finances should be in a much better state. I get three paychecks in November, which is ridiculously helpful all on its own, and I should be getting both a holiday bonus and a raise in December. Add in the tax refund that I should be getting at the beginning of 2018, and for the first time in ages I'm actually not completely panicking about the state of my life in general.

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Oct. 14th, 2017 09:05 am
turps: (unicorn)
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I did get a dress, and we picked up James' tux the other day, so we're pretty much set now. If you're interested, I posted the dress on insta here. Not the best of photos, and I need to decide what to do in terms of hair styles, but you get the idea.

Kayleigh had a lovely birthday, but when she got there the staff told her the room was haunted, so her and her gf spent the night expecting to see ghosts and saying they were going to sleep in the car. Apparently the room we'd chosen for them has been featured on Most Haunted, and the hotel itself left an A4 sheet of paper talking about the supposed hauntings. But they did stay -- and slept in the bed -- so all was well.

We went to see The Snowman yesterday, and like many films lately, I enjoyed it much more than I expected.

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Oct. 12th, 2017 08:18 am
camwyn: (angry cow)
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AAAAAGH

Boston Medical Center, I appreciate your desire to reach the general public with messages encouraging folks with breasts to show up for mammograms, esp. since this is October and that means Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

But could you PLEASE not do it with ads on Pandora where you have your mammogram machine (which sounds like a middle-aged white woman named Pam or Kimberly or something) sing breast-themed versions of Salt-N-Pepa music into someone's answering machine? I'm allowed to listen to Pandora at work, but I keep having to scramble to hit the mute button on my computer because it goes from nice shapeless calming ambient to LET'S TALK ABOUT BREAST HEALTH PLEASE, LET'S TALK ABOUT-

grhbghghagsdhghsdghs;dfh.

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Oct. 11th, 2017 10:01 pm
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So twitter has informed me that today is National Coming Out Day, following on the heels of World Mental Health Day yesterday.

I'm never quite sure if I should take part in days like this. Not because I don't think they're helpful, because I very much think they are for many, many people, but because I always feel a tiny bit weird about popping up and chiming in about myself. I suppose I'm rather private, though I'm not sure I actually am that private... at least, not on the internet.

I thought about saying something on twitter yesterday, if only because I suffer from trichotillomania and I tend to think more people should be aware of trichotillomania and dermatillomania. But I didn't partly because I don't exactly suffer from trichotillomania. I still pull my hair some but for the most part I don't really worry about it so much... so it's difficult to call it suffering. The hardest time I've had recently was when I had laser hair removal on my face and neck two years ago - during the process, you aren't supposed to do any kind of hair removal that destroys the roots of the hairs you're trying to laser away, so I practically had to sit on my hands to stop myself from whipping out a mirror and tweezers and going to town like I normally would. But suffering? Not really. Even when I find myself in the rare position of having to fix a bare patch in my eyebrows, it's not as half as distressing as it used to be. It's hard to discuss the emotional pain involved when the pain is mostly a memory at this point.

Though also it's hard for me to talk about trich because then I get this urge to pull at my eyebrows. As I sit here typing this, I want to run my finger over my left eyebrow and find just the right hair to pull. The urge will go away once I quit thinking about it, but it's a lot easier to stop thinking about it when I'm just writing a blog post than it is when I'm potentially setting myself up to engage in conversation about it. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed about it, not any more, but I really shouldn't set myself up for temptation. My poor eyebrows have suffered enough over the last 20 years.

As for National Coming Out Day, well... I don't know. More bi+ people out is a good thing, right? I might've gotten rid of all my internalized weirdness and been able to own my bisexuality for real at 18 instead of holding off for another ten years if I'd had more people out there going "yes, bisexuality is real, you aren't just trying to make yourself sound more interesting, your attractions are legitimate". But sometimes I really resent the idea that I have to go to the effort of coming out and that people can't just be more relaxed about the idea of people liking whoever they like regardless of gender.

I got a bit upset at this tumblr post I read a few months ago, written by someone who didn't like the idea of fictional utopias where sexual orientation just wasn't an issue because they didn't like the absence of gay culture. I didn't expect to feel so upset, not least of all because I do very much understand the point about gay culture. But I suppose this is where I'm a private person because I really would prefer a world where I didn't have to explain why I was into a person who's a different gender from a person I was into the week before. I would sacrifice gay culture in a heartbeat for a broader culture that was legitimately open to people of all genders and attractions. And I'm fine with that, even if it makes me some sort of horrible assimilationist.

So I haven't come out again, despite it being National Coming Out Day, because I am so very tired of needing to... and because, on some level, I am still a bit afraid to come out to any more people irl. My own sense of legitimacy isn't in question any more because I know who I am, but I still find it demoralizing to be dismissed.

It's good, I suppose, to have these sorts of days. And maybe I should use my voice more. But sometimes I wish it was easier just to be and not have to yell so loudly to make sure people know you're real.

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Oct. 10th, 2017 04:33 pm
turps: (Mikey&Cat)
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I'm so glad James finishes his set of days today. Normally the early starts don't bother me, but I've been dragging the last two days. We were even in bed by 9 last night, and I had a good sleep, but still feel like I need more.

Tomorrow is, must buy a dress day, so we're off to Metrocentre first thing. I've tried some on, now it's making a decision and checking out underwear as it's pointless getting the strapless dress if I can't get a bra to go with it. We also need to pick up James' tux. We ended up just buying in the end as hiring would have only been a little cheaper, plus they couldn't adjust the arms. This way he's got a suit tailored to fit him, which will look so much better.

I often dream about Camp Sparkle people, and last nights merits a mention simply because dream!me asked dream!Sperrywink if she'd beta for me. Which isn't unusual, what was though was I'd apparently written something 500k long, and had given her the first half to beta, with the second half being sent the next day. I just wish I knew what fandom/story it was. It could have been a sign for the future!

It's Kayleigh's birthday on Thursday. It was also my nephews on Sunday and my other nephews on Friday -- stupid birthday clusters! Kayleigh loves animals and phoned to ask if on her birthday we could go on a family day out to a safari park where you can feed giraffes. Which would be great, but mam's booked her a surprise stay in Lumley Castle on her birthday. She's gone all out with extras to the room, but put Kayleigh off by saying she didn't want to go on her trip, couldn't sit that long, why would she want to feed a giraffe etc, which of course made Kayleigh angry as she thought mam was doing her usual thing of spoiling occasions. In the end mam had to tell her she'd arranged something, but not what. Surprises, they really have the potential to blow up in your face.

I need go start something for tea now, but tonight is about relaxing, a long bath while reading Musketeer fic, a face mask, hair washed and conditioned, and then Bake Off. I've also got my eye on the BBB posted stories but I suspect they'll be left for a bit later.

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Oct. 10th, 2017 08:58 am
camwyn: Me in a bomber jacket and jeans standing next to a green two-man North Andover Flight Academy helicopter. (Default)
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So I learned a new wrapping technique from Gayle Bird Designs at Craftsy this weekend.

Turns out it's really fast, and looks awfully fancy into the bargain. )
turlough: Gerard Way facepalming, Life on the Murder Scene, 2005 ((mcr) oh shit!)
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"Mikey?" Gerard asks, and when he pries open his eyes all he sees are two tiny hands clutched over the side of the bunk. "The fuck?"

"I'm a kid," Mikey says, the hands disappearing from view. "A fucking kid."

"Language." It's an automatic response and Gerard's horrified at himself as he rolls over in his bunk, peering over the side at Mikey. Because, seriously, he's channelling their mom.

Except, this Mikey is tiny. His hair ruffled up in unruly spikes, and his feet bare, a ragged robot band-aid wrapped around one of his toes. Mikey's also staring at Gerard, and the soft roundness of his face does little to disguise his unimpressed look.


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Oct. 8th, 2017 11:34 am
turps: (unicorn)
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Nanna is still in the hospital. She's had a bad time of it, and in fact, after contacting sepsis we nearly lost her last week. Twice I visited and honestly thought I'd never see her again. The nurse even said no way should she have lasted the night, but she did.

She's a bit better now. Lucid again, but not eating and gets confused. Yesterday she kept saying she didn't know what she was supposed to be doing and had we ever gone through something like this. When her main heart doctor found out the treatment she'd had he wasn't pleased and has said if she goes downhill again she's to have no treatment except things to make her comfortable. No more x-rays or blood tests etc. He's said she'll never go home again, but I don't know if she'll end up in a nursing home, or stay in hospital, or just slip away. Any could happen. It doesn't help she's on a geriatric acute ward, so the ladies around her are seriously ill and keep dying.

She's always said she would go when she was 97, and it looks like she's going to get her wish. She's ready, and logically I know she's ready, but selfishly, I'm not at all. This photo was taken just two days after we thought we'd lose her, you can hardly believer she was at death's door so soon before.

But, things aren't all bad. It's Houghton Feast time, so I've been down to see the opening ceremony and to the parade. Sunderland illuminations have kicked off so I've been there on opening night, and went on the big wheel with James and my oldest nephew. If you're interested some photos of those are on my insta

I've seen Kingsman and Flatliners at the cinema. Been to see Hairspray at the theatre, been to Mog on the Tyne. Took mam out shopping where she actually managed to walk without her stick for a while and we had a lovely day together. And today I discovered my Durham Wasps jacket finally fits me \o/ Okay, so this jacket. For those who don't know the Wasps are my beloved hockey team that were ripped away from Durham and then eventually disbanded by the odious John Hall. Well before that I bought an official jacket, and could never fit into it. I'd bought the biggest size available, but it didn't even come close to zipping up, so I just shoved it in my wardrobe and forgot about it.

Today I tried it, and it fit nicely, which means I'm now a smaller size than I was when I was 19. It's also good as the other day I tried on my winter coats and they're both too big. One even fit over both me and James together and easily zipped up. I've a photo of that, not that it was easy, the both of us crab walking together to hit the button on the phone that was propped up on the mantle piece. But yeah, I can finally wear my Wasps jacket, which is bright blue and yellow, so I won't get missed in a crowd *g*

James also got his Christmas work rota today, and is off Christmas eve and Christmas day, days on Boxing day, and then nights over New Years eve and day, which is pretty much the best it could be. Well, obviously I'd like him to be off Boxing day too to hit the Lush sale but as rotas go it's a good one.
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